One afternoon, There was a very introverted guy, named Ben, walking with his college friends. They went downtown Chicago to get some coffee. He was 21 years old.
He went to Starbucks and ordered a Frappucino.
That day was sunny, it was not hot nor it was cold. It was perfect afternoon and the coffee tastes great.
Across the table, there was a blonde pretty girl. With long skirt she was wearing. No phone in her hands and no headphone in her ears, because it’s 1984!
She is sitting by herself with a cup of coffee in front of her.
This guy Ben is thinking
“She is very much of my type”
Ben knew exactly that this girl would not back down if she got approached. He was so sure just by looking at the girl’s attitude and how open her body language was.
Ben talked with his friend that he was attracted with that girl. His friends was laughing and tell him to leave her alone.
- Ben: should I approach her?
- Friend: don’t do that, a lot of people walking around, you will embarass us
- Ben: okay, I’m going to think what I should I tell her by the way
Ben wait and wait and wait, he was stopped with many excuses from his friends and many excuses in his head. Until a man coming from no where. He approached the girl. That man was very straight forward. And the girl was welcoming him right off the bat, just like what Ben thought she would be.
- The man : excuse me, hi!
- The girl: hi 🙂
- The man: I saw you and you are pretty
- The girl: Thank you (giggling a little bit)
- The man: I’m Arthur
- The girl: I’m Jessica
Then they are having conversation until they exchange number. It was home number by the way.
Yes. Ben was right! the girl was actually waiting for a man to talk with her.
He was just not courageous enough to just walk and say hi to her. The fear of rejection and awkwardness were dominating him.
Ben lies in hospital, he was diagnosed with coronary artery disease. He was 55 years old.
He was struggling with his disease for 5 years and regretting almost everything that he has done in his younger days. He remember how he cared so much about people’s opinion. He regret that he never take a chance to do what he always wanted to do.
And somehow he also remembered the girl that resonated with him in Starbucks 35 years ago. Like it was yesterday.
It’s not that the girl was so special or so rare. It’s just he realize how his fear in the past doesn’t mean nothing at all. That fear of approaching the girl at the Starbucks, comparing to what he is going through now. He flash back everything.
- Fear of what other people think about him
- Fear of embarrassment
- Fear of his friends’ opinions and ridicules
All of those. Doesn’t mean nothing in the face of death. Like literally. Nothing at all.
Tears start to stream down on his face, he start to realize the true meaning of life.
to be continued.